so my friend and i were talking

so my friend and i were talking and he was explaining
he would fuck rosie for money.
and i thought, well, he might just get rich.

but i can't give that part of me to someone
who doesn't give a shit.

to someone who doesn't see me for what i am,
for who i am
scars and shit and pus and all
i want them to see that first
and then see if they'd still like to love me with their body.

because doing the opposite has not worked, as we can see.

and while i'm not so sure my body is sacred,
it's connected to my heart and my mind
and those are.

so fuck off,
i hate you,
and i am in control now.